It's 10:45 pm and Steve has finally quieted down. His fever spiked to 102 and around 9 pm he started getting delirious again. He kept trying to get out of bed and was really disoriented, although he did know who I was but he didn't seem to know exactly where he was. I'm attributing that mostly to the fever because he seemed to be doing better earlier in the day when he only had a low grade fever. I think if we could get past the fevers, or possible infections or whatever is going on, we'd be making more progress.
The Metro officers in the security detail have been so great. They are truly an amazing group of people. On more than a few occasions, just today alone, they have comforted me while I was sobbing in the hallway. Thanks guys...you always seem to be coming around the corner just when I need someone to lean on.
Tonight will be a long night as I am the only one here from our family. I encouraged Steve's mom to take the night off because she desperately needed a break. This is taking a toll on all of us, especially Steve, and we're trying to remember to go easy on each other. We agreed in the beginning not to lose our tempers for the inconsequential things or at least not to take it personally when one of us does. But we can all feel the pressure building. Strangely I'm actually feeling quite peaceful at this moment. It's nice to be alone with Steve even if he is sleeping. Feels like being at home...
4 comments:
Beth,
I am speechless. I am glad that you are using the blog to vent and express yourself. Please don't forget to take care of yourself. Thank you for sharing what you guys are going through it is very humbling to read the blog especially since most of us are on the job and most of us have spouses that are also on the job. Remember when you had just gotten back from bonding and you were stuck on the front desk? I was stuck on the front desk w you because I was pregnant. We had ordered Palermo’s pizza, you order the one with the tomato chunks and I had pepperoni, the desk was so slow that night that we spent the whole time eating and talking. We had talked about our experiences and how difficult life was. Well, I hope you remember what experiences we spoke about. One experience being what you were going through while you were getting things ready for your wedding with Steve… (Hint). Keep in mind, God doesn’t give us more than we can handle. Steve will come out of this stronger than ever.
Jen :)
My Classmate,
You are one of the strongest women I know. From day one in 1995 I looked up to you. To this day I still feel the same. Steve is a stong man and he truly loves you, he told me at the golf tournament how much you mean to him.
Luv Ya Girl
Peat
Hi Beth,
So glad to hear you and Steve have such a wonderful and caring support team. I'm also grateful that Steve's mom and sister can be there with you to help out with overnight hospital stays and with caring for the children. I know it would be so much harder to tackle this without their 24 hour help.
Beth you are doing a fantastic job taking care of Steve and making those all important decision. Thank God you are on top of Steve's recover needs. Just keep listening to The Inner Spirit, as you have been, and things will work out in due time.
We love you all so much and are continuing to pray for strength and a smooth recovery. Take care, love from your Arizona Family
Beth,
You are doing everything just right. It is challenging to see a loved one in such distress. After my mom's accident whcih included a traech and months of hospitilization it is trying. One thing that worked is getting the familiar loving faces in front of them as often as possible. Trust me you are making a big difference. When we would take the kids to see her that would definately put a smile on her face. Your strength is admirable and it is no surprise that the R-100 detail is performing to the Metro standard. That standard is what will help Steve prevail. GOD Bless You and your family.
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